Catching up & Venting a bit.

I haven't blogged in a bit.... So much going on here lately it's been hard to take the time to organize my thoughts and put them down. I have been spending a lot of time on Facebook lately, I have commented there quite abit, it's easy to get caught up in the emotions that run rampant out there. So many people across Facebook who love animals, what confuses me I think is if we are such an animal loving Nation, how do these acts of cruelty and neglect happen so damn often?

How do these shelters & rescues who are supposed to be helping the animals get away with these acts of neglect, curelty and abuse? Why do the employees not come forward, speak out? How do the neighbors NOT notice when something doesn't feel or look right?

The daily abuse and neglect across this nation is mind-boggling and heartbreaking. It's overwhelming if you let yourself sit and just contemplate and realize that each minute that passes, somewhere an animal is suffering and you can do nothing to prevent or stop it.

I am not much for comics, but the other day after reading of yet another animal abuse case in Ohio, I wished for a bit that there was a group of SuperHeroes to save the animals and punish the people who so desperately deserve it.

I read the articles about the Shelters, I see the news stories & videos of people abusing, torturing, slaughtering, I see the petitons to save animals, to end abuse and cruelty..... I get emotionally drained, I cry like I would never cry hearing the same about instances of similiar happening to human beings and I wonder what that says about me. I strive to be compassionate toward all living things, to understand others and see the good in all people and not to judge others, but I have a VERY hard time when it comes to those human beings who place no value on an animals life, who committ atrocities on the animals they see as worthless, disposable and I have such rage that boils inside of me, it is like I am watching a bully tormenting one they see as weaker, I want to grab them and put them in so much pain they cannot fathom it will ever end.

I do not want to kill them, I want to make them suffer, deeply. I get angry when I hear of the ridiculous sentencees these beasts get for their acts of in humane cruelty and neglect, I want to do unimaginable things to them which make them cry out in agony. 

I strive for compassion, but I feel like I fail so much of the time when it comes to abusers.

One thing I do know, I am far from a pacifist and I would not hestiate were I given the chance, to inflict great amounts of pain on a human being who would touch someone or something they saw as weaker than themselves or without value.

It is like I feel their suffering, their fear, their confusion and from the deepest place within my soul, I want to do everything I can to end it and I can not, which kills a small part of me inside every moment I realize that I can not save them all, that until we unite as a Nation and DEMAND changes from ourselves and our Officials, many will die needlessly.

It's too much to think about sometimes.